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Career Fulfillment

The feeling of career fulfillment – ahhhhh – like a post-turkey-dinner nap, or a gold-star-stamped exam – it feels wonderful doesn’t it? In essence it satisfies our being – and who doesn’t want that feeling? I know I sure do.

I had that feeling for many years as I zipped up my black steel-toed work boots and buttoned my advanced care paramedic epaulettes onto my uniform shirt. I had that feeling when I showed a paramedic student how to start an intravenous (IV) line and when I saw their eyes light up when I placed their hands in the proper place to feel that a patient’s pulse had returned. I had that feeling when I held a patient’s hand in the back of a bumpy ambulance as we drove them to the cardiac care centre to have the blockage removed that was causing them to have a heart attack. I had it when a healthy baby was born, and even when I stood frozen from the cold wind on the side of a highway waiting for a patient to be extricated from a car.

For me, career fulfillment didn’t come easily. It took a lot of endurance and hard work to become a paramedic, and alas, it was fleeting. What fulfills my life has changed since I was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) after a double murder call I was a paramedic at in 2012. And finding that feeling of fulfillment again took me quite a long time because sadly I placed all of my worth into being a paramedic and forgot that I was still a human being under my uniform.

The truth is, just when you think life has set you on a path of endless happiness, an unexpected fork in the road appears, and pulls you down a path you didn’t choose – or did you? That path may be dark, and filled with thorn-covered, tangled vines in which you have to navigate around, through, and under, careful not to cut yourself or get suffocated with. At some point the path may be filled with hopelessness…until one day a glimmer of light appears through the mess, and you suddenly remember that life can be fulfilling again.

Career fulfillment has returned to my life – I now I share my recovery story with the world. I let people know that there is hope and happiness after a major career change; sometimes happiness you never could have imagined if you didn’t make that change. I now have the opportunity to watch people grow through peer support meetings I helped to create called, Wings of Change, (a free solution-based peer support model that demonstrates to the meeting goers that they are not alone and that recovery can be a beautiful path.)

Now I get to listen to stories of enlightenment when someone finds a break in the binding chains of PTSD. I get to witness heartwarming moments of recovery. I get to say I have a voice again, and best of all, I get to witness other’s find theirs. I may not walk in paramedic boots anymore, but I have been blessed to now walk beside those who still do.

The Grieving Process

On this episode of BrainStorm I share how important it is to go through all the steps of the grieving process with any loss including the loss of a relationship and the loss of your career. 

 

Check Out These Books Written by Natalie Harris

Daily Lessons from Save My Life School: Here

Save My Life School: Here

 

This episode of BrainStorm is brought to you by The Homewood Health Clinic Mississauga 

 

 

BrainStorm by Natalie Harris is proudly produced by PodcastWagon.com

Sirius XM – Canada Now Interview – Paramedics and PTSD

Sirius XM – Canada Now

AFTER THE SIRENS

WORLD BROADCAST PREMIERE:
Sunday April 8, 2018 | 9:00pm (9:30 NT)
CBC DOCS POV
Also airs online at cbc.ca/cbcdocspov/ on Friday, April 6 from 5:00pm ET

The Things I Miss About Paramedic Land

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I miss:

  • interpreting ECG’s;
  • the smell of tourniquets;
  • the feeling when I got to take my coat off in a warm truck after standing on the cold highway for hours;
  • getting a pulse back;
  • when I had a student and I let them sit in the front so I could sit in the back alone with my feet up on the stretcher, looking around my ‘office’, wondering how the heck I got to do the best job in the world;
  • the clang behind me of the base’s garage door when I first arrived at work;
  • patching to the hospital with a CTAS 1 knowing that everyone was listening and wanting to do a good job;
  • telling the room that I got the order for midazolam;
  • getting the tube;
  • hearing a healthy baby cry for the first time;
  • getting cancelled at 5am;
  • being a preceptor;
  • making my preceptor proud;
  • my fire guys and my police officers;
  • knowing a street address without looking it up – and knowing the patient too;
  • knowing the nurses and doctors well enough that they trusted your word;
  • being able to stand up in the back of the ambulance;
  • checking my bags and the sound of the zipper;
  • seeing the relief in a parent’s eyes;
  • new boots;
  • having a sunny day and not having to clean the truck;
  • getting the line that no one else could get;
  • lifting the patient after they said I was too small to lift them;
  • laughing so hard when my pants split that I almost peed said pants – and duct taping them back together;
  • having time to pee, have a coffee and eat on the same shift;
  • dynamic calls;
  • my partners;
  • the helicopter landing and taking off from the highway;
  • knowing the dispatcher’s voices;
  • Jugo Juice at the hospital;
  • when my partner brought extra dessert for me;
  • my EMS family.

Resolving Resentments and Changing Fear to Faith

On this episode of BrainStorm, I am excited to share a spiritual experience I had with my sponsor. You will hear the happiness in my voice. 

 

Check out these books Written by Natalie Harris

Daily Lessons from Save My Life School: Here

Save My Life School: Here

 

This episode of BrainStorm is brought to you by The Homewood Health Clinic Mississauga 

 

 

BrainStorm by Natalie Harris is proudly produced by PodcastWagon.com

 

New Relationship!

In this episode I share about my new relationship and relationships in general. How will I manage ups and downs?

 

Books Written by Natalie Harris

Daily Lessons from Save My Life School: Here

Save My Life School: Here

 

This episode of BrainStorm is brought to you by The Homewood Health Clinic Mississauga 

 

 

BrainStorm by Natalie Harris is proudly produced by PodcastWagon.com

D’Aundra, Paramedic Student (Part 1)

On this episode of BrainStorm I talk with a new Paramedic student D’Aundra. This is the first episode in a series where we will follow up with D’Aundra and be part of her journey becoming a Paramedic. 

 

Books Written by Natalie Harris

Daily Lessons from Save My Life School: Here

Save My Life School: Here

 

This episode of BrainStorm is brought to you by The Homewood Health Clinic Mississauga 

 

 

BrainStorm by Natalie Harris is proudly produced by PodcastWagon.com

 

Tools For Anxiety

On this episode of BrainStorm I share some tools for dealing with Anxiety. 

 

Books Written by Natalie Harris

Daily Lessons from Save My Life School: Here

Save My Life School: Here

 

This episode of BrainStorm is brought to you by The Homewood Health Clinic Mississauga 

 

 

BrainStorm by Natalie Harris is proudly produced by PodcastWagon.com

Lessions From My 12 Step Meeting

On this episode of BrainStorm: I share about gratitude and the lessons I learn from my 12 step meeting.

Books

Daily Lessons from Save My Life School: Here

Save My Life School: Here

BrainStorm by Natalie Harris is proudly produced by PodcastWagon.com

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